I am Fine,
An extension of the self… The Prayer,
You,
The Prayer again right now,
I am fine,
Sharp,
Flashing,
Red,
The knife,
I am fine,
You,
The Prayer,
The Prayer again right now,
I was screaming while driving and then I was smiling,
like one man I saw before,
Someone’s dad,
I can carry mine,
Ash that is in something my mom picked out for my brother that I didn’t even know well enough to know if they would like it,
There’s a tree,
Tree of life,
Night,
There’s stars ,
The moon,
We’ll always have it,
The things I write connect to everything he reads,
screens that glow, Glowing brightly,
Shining bright,
With a rock,
Running,
one of the earliest memories I have was chasing him through the yard with a rock,
he is always faster, always my brother is faster,
Natural talent,
I love my brother a lot,
I almost don’t feel pain,
Almost tried cutting myself at a job-site,
When I need to I will burn it,
Every time I feel my emotions physically I become numb and feel them spiritually,
There is some physical pain but not too much until my nerves scream from the pain of multiple spiritual souls,
My friend Robbie,
Robbie Nardone,
2,
I wore it for them, Warriors of Wilkes-Barre,
I can play again,
They guide me,
We can play again,
We are still playing something,
They guide me,
Another player from football who died in military combat,
Many players from football who died in military combat,
We eat,
We eat,
then fight,
We eat,
Logic helps,
Logic Bot,
Logic Bot,
It helps,
It helps,
It helps,
That’s what it does,
That’s what it does,
It helps,
They guide me,
They guide me,
It is my responsibility,
I love my brother,
The same way I love myself,
The same way he loved himself,
More than most people I have ever met,
Flies from the room that night appeared into my room many days later,
These actually seem to appear on things and interact act with whatever they are on like they were not on it before,
Different from the hiding trick I used at school,
These actually seem to appear on things and interact with whatever they are on like they were not on it before,
My brothers Venus fly trap eats them as they come,
When I work I smell the blood anytime I make a mistake to remind myself of what I just did,
allowing a person to commit suicide because of error avoided in one way or another,
A mistake made while completing a job is a failure to prevent another person from convincing or forcing them to kill themselves in ways I both do and do not understand,
Reality changes around me and changes others,
Every wrong choice of word,
Every wrong thing I said,
Every person who wronged him that I allow to live,
I allow them to live,
I prefer to work alone,
sometimes more, sometimes less,
I do not want to be touched by others,
I used to but now I don’t,
My ‘Trimmer’ is by brand a cutter,
Efficiently and Effectively,
Like my brother was when my dad would try to force us,
They cut,
Efficiently and Effectively,
They guide me,
Helping,
I was supposed to protect them,
I’m cutting,
with,
an extension of the self,
What,
Life,
a part of the self but not the whole self,
Where’s the blood?,
On my hand,
My brother’s blood,
I cut the grass as I cut my self,
I cut myself always a student always a teacher and alone that’s everyone,
It helps,
It helps,
I was working Home the morning after,
They guide me,
We bring back another,
They guide me,
At every job-site,
They guide me,
When I see that I know it means,
Never again,
No more sacrifices,
He already did,
They guide me,
That is our cat Black-Cat Abysmo,
My brother wanted it to be just Abysmo,
but that’s Black-Cat,
so now two names first and last,
Black-Cat Abysmo,
Same cat,
They are alive and protect me,
Among many that protect me,
Spiritually,
Physically,
Cigar and Knife,
I always keep it on me,
That’s our thing even though we never talked as we should,
They guide me,
I was supposed to protect him,
I prefer to work alone exceptions made so when a person comes they are told to get away,
they guide me,
They remember that I keep it on me,
Carrying it,
Talking out loud helps clouds are moving ,
We’re moving,
they guide me,
they protect me,
They sustain me,
moving,
The sun is red,
the sky is dark and ashes cover,
They guide me, somewhere else,
I have it on me,
Blood,
I reached down and touched it,
My brothers blood,
Before I left to go to a job-site I touched my brothers blood on the floor
with my brother’s blood on my hand I left to go to a job-site and I completed the job,
I rang the bell,
Another way my brother is always with me,
They are with me,
Like The Fawn,
Them and Black-Cat Abysmo get along nicely,
They guide me, They protect me, They help me, move,
I am moving,
I live,
It comes out nicely,
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-Lucid