Texted a bunch of people I was friends with and none of them responded so I’m kinda upset,

I had a weird dream just before that many of them were over my house and we were having a party, cooking things on the grill and and a big spread of food on the dinning room table, there were people walking around that I didn’t know but all of them seemed friendly and either knew my old friends or my parents, the people that used to be my friends that were there were the ones that I met in college, I wrote once that the people I used to be friends with are either dead or dead to me not because I hated them but because I really didn’t know and would have to think of them as that if I never saw them again because I know that there are certain situations where if something happened that I wouldn’t be allowed to know about it but the reasoning behind that is another whole explanation and adventure in and of itself, I was standing in the kitchen and people were moving through the house and outside in the yard getting food and talking to each other, out of every person I could have been talking to I was there with Sophie out of all people, standing there in the kitchen talking to her I said most of this doesn’t make sense and feels like when I’m dreaming from another place compared to compared to other things like dreams except dreams like this I usually don’t have to focus on how I physically feel to change it because I can physically feel things and feel pain, I poked her in the shoulder and said do you feel that and I felt my finger indent as it pressed and did the same against her shoulder, I said sometimes I’m places were I can’t physically feel things like the nerves in my body are turned off and I have to be careful not to burn myself with hot water in the shower or by grabbing something that’s hot and not realizing it until it’s burned enough to feel, and now I’m writing this, some bad things have happened and gone wrong in many different places recently hasn’t there?,

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