Positive thinking,

although it might be difficult to find someone open to my kind of thinking and ok with all this and how intense I can be with relationship things, like the whole next person I’m with like that I would like to be the last no matter how long it lasts thing, or the whole limiting other connections/friendships so that our connection would be the most important at least to an extent and because I probably wouldn’t have as many connections to friends the way most people might thing, but there is also the almost background wanting to be with or at least kiss another woman(female any time I use the word woman I usually mean the word female and that’s also a whole thing) just so that the last time I did isn’t with a person I had a ‘negative experience’, to describe lightly without getting into details again, anymore, and the whole no dancing with anyone until marriage thing, that I wouldn’t not that I would expect them not to, and not trusting or liking dating apps or websites and bars and places people would usually go to hookup or meet people like that or just the whole they would have to be the one to ask or approach me randomly in most public places and situations because of reasons that are themselves whole things thing, or the whole heightened sexuality or whatever without describing all that I can have sometimes and the contradictions with that and true intimacy thing, yeah positive thinking or like I once wrote ‘hope for future interactions’ even when that’s not usually what is on my mind when I interact with most people anymore, would still be cool to have someone randomly interact with me like that especially without a conspiracy or set-up by a bunch of people that could make something like that negative potentially in a very bad way, still have been trying to think a little more positively and not worry about just how comfortable I have been or could be with myself potentially limiting that possibility or anything,

Hope is good and enjoying solitude is also good,