Someone reading this who is going to be helped by the outcome of themselves responding to reading this because of how them reading this is selected as known to be helpful in ways helpful enough beyond the ways known helpful by most to justify helping reading take place and safety of communication afterwards that in and of itself can only exist safely and rightly that’ll take place once they communicate with who, or is it whom?, is known communication with between helps more in understandable ways ununderstandable yet comparable although more numerable than the understandable numerable helpful ways that led to the reading to take place and continued encouraged protected momentum of beneficial being that can only be in situations somehow now fortunately after how unfortunate they actually were even unimaginably so to some  that there is hope in understanding what this reading has past had become understanding for them from reading just as much as what would be actively prevented from forming as an understanding of that creates existence as that can be better because of the reading continuing and there being a feeling worth continuing that reading previous fades into background as it is continuing past the words reading long after reading there is a feeling worth continuing and somehow the reading is continuing and impossible to know is how much reading is read that is absent from the reading you’ve read that is being read by others another that could only be read by confirming with them and bringing to do would only have been motivated by negative created and known as such still negatively sought regardless unless there’s something else motivating something differently as a feeling continues long after reading continues despite being long after reading there is someone reading that will communicate reading that will do so like in the reading because of the good outcome caused by the reading there is someone reading a feeling worth continuing, 

Sometimes I feel as though my expressions of desire for somethings I have written about feel sarcastic or jokingly downplayed as inauthentic or disrespectful or dehumanizing or something like that but honestly a woman or a couple actually messaging me and wanting to come over with the intention of being with me and being relaxed and open and respectful would mean more to me than I could describe immediately, 

I feel as though understanding my situation and actuality of my interactions with people would make that ok with me to be ok with being, 

something like that would be expressing and promoting love and respect that even when seemingly impersonal and commonplace in a larger world understood a certain way would bring more love and connection than the way it’s normally expressed and understood would articulate and possibly would coincide with how it is in that way ‘traditionally’ later on, 

simply communicated or articulated at length it would be true and either would be both when perspectives are learned as being able to in ways not understood before, something like that would mean more than it would be described if it even had to be by anyone else other than all involved as even though thought of as a social thing on a larger scale like an event it could be limited to being personal and social to just the people experiencing it, 

it would 

as would many things but I won’t compare them to have one instead of the other as I think of other things like the mindset that feels subtly encouraged in some way to be that way, 

emotions felt and not hidden in comparison by me to those potentially seemingly hidden while felt in pinpoint intensity within that is itself difficult to pinpoint to understand by many perspectives but I’ll know it’s there, 

relaxing and being with each other understanding that limiting talking in ways possibly complicated or just articulated complexly linguistically while ok eventually and sporadically that it is ok to just be quietly with each other feeling and being even if not necessarily quiet, 

for something like that I would already be ok with everything with them and allow myself to feel them as they prompt more of what they want for us aside from a close held tight slow dance around something like a dance floor because despite everything else that would be what’s held reserved as truly special for the one I marry to experience with me later on, 

first slow dance with someone holding each other the way I’ve seen couples do my entire life, even when holding each other tight standing up and moving however we end up here wouldn’t be the same as what I’d be saving for the one who would marry me so nothing would ever be feared to accidentally be done that would change that while we’re here, 

I’d just say it’s ok for us to get entirely nude and that I would want to and you’d be welcomed to be comfortable in anyway you’d like and not have to try to explain anything, 

we would be able to and have our privacy aside from each other as we’d be left and respected to be however we are by any who’d be near as they’d give us space enough to be truly comfortable being however we’d want with trusted privacy aside they understand that need for a day and night and possibly another day of private connection and interaction with other people after events and situations experienced and gone through would call for something like that normally just to be able to live through and somehow I haven’t been touched by another or should it be phrased just haven’t been touched without ‘another’ included or either way a person in over months once becomes special eventually understood as such and further avoided until only the situation as such is where it is absent thought and held in ways special in existence unlike otherwise possible but only when unknowable while existence is such and thinking that I haven’t experienced even touch taken for granted as my current situation and mindset created and outward exception to that in such a desired situation with someone a woman or possibly a couple would be the juxtaposition that would help make that ok for me, 

that would be ok, 

I’m actually in a point in my life where almost anything that would happen with a sexual nature to it like what I’ve described would not just be ok by almost every perspective I could imagine because of how it would have to go about happening which would be special and good in such an extreme way for so many people literally saving lives and preventing disaster for some indirectly impacted by the goodness of something authentic happening with benevolent involvement that any negative connotation would be outweighed by positive loving ones no matter the way things could or would progress for us after and because of the safeguards and security surrounding everything involved communicating with anyone at all making so that the only things like that to happen would only be able to be good things making it so that the background paranoia and suspicion of something intentionally hurtful or unintentionally bad happening is removed entirely even despite the always present thought that by articulating that it would influence something negative with reasoning as people doing just to spite itself yet with understanding of everything as it is still I know that it would be good overall and life changing good for people in ways I’d both understand and come to know as well as in ways that I’d never understand or directly know about, 

like karma but exceptionally multiplied positively to a ridiculous degree because of the actuality of everything, every possible situation that could potentially happen being ok and understood enough that we could articulate it to each other if wanted or just understand and feel comfortable without any additional explanation with confidence internally of the overall goodness of what we are doing, 

it seems weird and against some vague ways but honestly it would be ok to message through the business number and say that you’d like my personal number because in response I’d just ask for your name and a picture of you with an ID to ID of course like a selfie with your drivers license held up by your face to be sent before I’d send my personal number and once you message it I’d simply ask if you’re interested in doing anything specific with me or if there’s any other reason you wanted to message me personally and while I’m always open for anything like literally almost anything if explained even something like a date or simple as ‘I want to be the one to be the one to kiss you first after no one else has in almost 10 years because i would make it happy to remember and good in nature even if significance isn’t the connection like it could be thought of because it’d be better than how it is’ I’d honestly discuss things like that because this is my life and sometimes it can feel limited because of how I know how to continue living happily and how that way can isolate me socially even though being how to move forward successfully and accomplish goals that mean a lot to me that mean much more than most people would have them mean to them so seldom found opportunities will present to connect with others intensely compared to otherwise how they’d usually be found so I would like to help while I experience them throughput my life, also I would very much like if you say that you’ve read my writing and would like to come over and do something like the sexual things I’ve written and said to want to have happen then I’ll send you my address again and tell you to call me when you get here, we might have to force ourselves into being as we’d like as sometimes we’d still be the guarded personality that publicly we imagine as having to be, 

just discussing you enjoying the reading and someone reading the reading would be, 

I’d say I want you here and let’s relax because I’ll be the first to say that it’s ok for us to be getting weird because weird is how you really want to be and how weird it is that being comfortable is weird to be when that’s how we really want to be while we are the way we should be with each other which is however we want as we respectfully are and respectfully being in the way we respectfully are allows us comfort that might be unfamiliar to how comfortable being was previously described and experienced as being as there is some more correctly being that is comfortable with something more behind it that is a feeling worth continuing so you can do everything you’d like to me but kiss me after I tell you that after and before who we are or were doesn’t matter for now if that’s something you might think and worry about but not everyone would unless expected to interact in someway that you shouldn’t worry because understanding as well as other potential discussable explanations, 

if a couple then introduce me to you both by having the male tell me to do something similar to like previously described in the reading with the woman or something simple like to kiss and embrace them while the male reassures and proceeds to direct involvement between us as that would comfort me and you could maybe even joke how it’d be said just like that with ‘the male’ and ‘the woman’ being titles said that otherwise feel weird to acknowledge as being ok to use and once comfortable with her and you with how I am with her and you being there as I am increasingly directed that being more physical with her is ok and I could ‘lose myself’ with her while they’re there and openness increasing with possibilities with him past what naturally occurs or is more often forced to have to force, eventually we’d go inside although we could progress that way once already inside either way we would relax with each other while you’d explain what you’d like between us all without reservation as respectful acceptance is understood as well as my willingness to try almost everything especially knowing how special of a situation like knowing that even if I’m uneasy or seemingly unnaturally going through what I’m doing at first you would know that I’d honestly be into everything more than we’d either expect and hold onto the somber solemness that id shut it on and off for myself so quickly and completely before and after that the damage to my soul is intensified into something healing more than could be damaged in the moment of everything when I would need it to even if it’s something simple as I want to be here with you watching her be with you how you’d like and have us be together like that, I do something similar every time I interact with anyone publicly with everything potentially wanting any connection being attempted to be shut off because of my beliefs for it to be only ok in anyway in open situations like this, 

even if different described with a couple or a woman just us once inside I’d say I’d really like to get nude and have us start to do something physical together because we’ll feel better if we do and relax our personalities and begin to just be with each other even though that I would be being against how I usually am with people almost all the time so the more like that we would be the more relaxed and comfortable being like that we’d be, 

 I’d do everything at least as much as I could just like that with anyone contacting me in such a way openly because this will only find those who it will be good for them to have read this and contact me and have connections deeply with me like I’ve described after they have read this and decide that they want this to continue with them and have it continue in person, complex situation caused by many bad things initially occurring and good things continually being done in response to help create something good in ways unable to be understood as it’s goodness exceeds comprehension and wouldn’t gather much attention otherwise, The reading continues long after the reading and as it fades still continuing in the background there is a feeling that is worth continuing as the mind is quieting but still unheard the reading is continuing but there is a feeling that is worth continuing and while quieting feeling with would make it worth with would make it worth the reading remaining unheard as the feeling continues with the mind quieting feeling continues without the reading returns louder as it’s heard with would make it worth either way louder or quiet with would make it worse, it’d even be nice to have a female(still feels weird phrasing it like that) just message me to just talk about anything without other intention whether there or not it would be cool to have someone message me to tell me they like my writing and want to discuss the reading, 

anything like that,