Even if arranged or set up like I used to kinda be against,
creating situations artificially as though happening naturally,
I would be ok with it with understanding different reasons because of different understandings and someone meeting me tonight in a real way would make a difference,
kinda at the point where we could just vibe (feels weird phrasing like that) all night and not really have to talk and we’d be ok,
hanging out naked with a naked female here whether someone who knew of me is some way radically different than how I am now as they’re here with me almost absent the self that they were in relation to me before and instead something purer and honest just being here with me,
them being fully nude and walking around here between us together wherever we happened to be when we decided that we should have me inside them as we continue to feel as though we were already with us embracing on chairs table futon and armchair or standing to floor and the way their body hangs without clothes as we do different things between embracing with pleasure nude form thighs as they relax while moving and conform to how their positioned wherever they’re sitting,
old personalities break through slightly like flashbacks before returning to we are with each other different as we become even more changed from this experience different from any or what most would believe as normal still noticing though like a flash of an internal face that is recognized as something definable because of how we used to perceive them like something we recognize as familiar and immediately distort our perception of with will as we understand at our core the incorrectness we developed and accepted as truthful conception in some way that changed because of something different within our perspective and being that feels itself almost damaging within when identifying something that itself outlines self damaging for an instant like pain as if that’s what it was as itself and then gone as if replaced with something opposite to the existence felt briefly flashing understanding understanding exponentially hurting and then together we’re becoming different and attention there is focused here relaxing their body as their thighs fold as they’re draped over me with my hand and theirs behind guiding and sliding around between my fingers with my other embracing their body as it relaxed hangs off their leg and conforms and moves to my arm and torso as pleasure stress and focus is guided through neurological routes that relax body as what feels tension pleasure peaks into being substance intenser purer than where itself is less than and then understanding of separation within body as more and less being existing and then from same as mine within mine is where different mixed in with different within body understanding more and less existing simultaneously then more while I feel you draped over me laying across while I lean back relaxed our bodies uncovered and nude visually obsessed how lounging on a couch like a couch our bodies nude without anything else begins to realize existing more and less within itself as relaxed pleasure neurologically stressed exists more as more exists within same space as before understanding of truth flirting like the end of flames flickering brighter but never certain of something that feeling the absence of because imagining how certainty could be understood without feeling without there is more without going anywhere else someplace else where it is and was more itself from there more is felt and willed and show you how there and here to there more there without going anywhere else there somehow more of itself within same space visually existing as though looking down our bodies nude conforming over each other technically futon finding words is sometimes difficult like another place we are as well reverberating that’s why when you come over I want to get nude and have us do something physical to get past everything we have and we’re feeling each other I’ll sit here you throw your legs over I can feel we already both are feeling without going through anywhere else as if something physically here more felt there while just feeling other places more than your fingers feeling through between mine as feeling mine and more there we are,
again we can,
who we were doesn’t it’s ok that we meet and decide to get nude and lay together without discussing much else because we’ve been feeling communicating that helps us quiet how we think almost automatically when of each feeling where conversation progresses or how and something different is better from there it’s ok to go against the absent will felt as will to talk in ways that feel as though able to be seen from somewhere else and difference within of more and less quiet feeling worth continuing quiet nude relaxed and pleasure sharpening stress more still relaxed it’s ok for us to do that and continue until we’re here,
still feeling your nude form between as you move around doing different things and your body relaxed and moving as you we feel and within you and me feeling relaxed and more wherever we are as soon as we are,
something like that would be nice,