Fantasies and day dreams like JD from Scrubs, 

When I used to smoke my little cigars by the cellar door I would see delivery drivers dropping off things by the door I’d be standing by and there is a long narrow driveway leading to it, some of them would back their trucks up all the way down to right in front of the door like absolute pros, 

it is fecking hard to back up anything like a truck, and after a while of them doing that I noticed that once in a while the driver would be a much younger person that doesn’t regularly do the routes around here and they’d slowly attempt to back their trucks up like they were training and were sent there specially by the people training them so they could work on progressing that skill. That is really cool and good for everyone who is involved with places positively taking care of and training their employees in good ways like that. 

I remember the one was a really pretty young curly haired female driver that was shorter than me but looked fit and cute in her uniform that said to me as she put the package by me and went back to her vehicle ‘hey wish I could stay around and hang out but I really got to go’ I didn’t say anything to prompt that and couldn’t tell if she was joking because I look like the type of guy that would hit on someone like her and that she really has to deal with things like that happening all the time or if she just actually thought that she’d like to do that picturing me to invite her in and hang out. That would’ve been cool. 

‘Hey take a break I’m playing Pokémon Stadium and have a fridge filled with soda and chips and snacks and things with everything set up kinda like a man cave and a circle table with a couple chairs and microwave and pantry by the entertainment center with a huge flat screen and other displays if you like to sit down and have your lunch and hang out with me while I play and then go once your break’s over,’,

When they get back

‘Oh hey how’d your route go’

‘this guy smoking little cigars by their door invited me in and they had like a mini cafeteria/break room setup right by a huge tv entertainment center with couches and stuff that they had video games set up so I took my lunch and talked with them about the old Pokémon Stadium game they were playing before my lunch break was over. They gave me a couple cans of cherry coke and munchies chip bags.’
‘Can I take that route next time?’ 

‘They said to ask if you like Halo or football video games or if not what else and that sometimes they run out of snacks and soda, also that don’t be alarmed if he has his uniform on, Lucid Suit he called it, and he has his gun on cause I guess he’d be like the security guard anywhere you’d work like that’,

‘what do you think these ones are we got for tomorrow?’ 

‘Snacks and soda’,  

Probably breaks some kind of delivery profession code of ethics or something like that though….,

I miss doing that and standing there relaxing and feeling at ease before going back in to play a few games between jobs that can be high stress or physically exhausting and drinking a cold cherry coke and a snack like one of my favorites, sour neon gummy worms, and playing some games, but I don’t want to bother anyone and I get anxiety about being a bad example to young or little ones but that is the one thing I’d live with as long as I’m not bothering anyone and making anyone feel uncomfortable….my example in literally everything else is more than enough to feel like a good example has been set….. what other projects I wonder could I do to make this place a little better.., 

You should do that on your lunch breaks yourself and actually take the full hour while at job-sites so you can so you don’t mentally burn out,

you burned 6 thousand calories and your mind went through several graduate level thought ‘experiments’ while you did,

it is ok to be like yum snacks is good and game is fun once in a while,