So far….. ,

I’m kinda walking and don’t need to use crutches anymore, 

My leg were it broke and where the metal plate is screwed into the bone actually feels ok and I have no pain there when I walk, 

I use this special support boot thing on my leg and ankle to help protect them as I walk, 

the ankle joint directly in the middle of it gets sore after walking but moves well with almost as much mobility as it had before just without the stability that it once had and it being more difficult to go through the same range of motion as before as it feels tight while moving, 

The cane thing that I have was made by my younger brother and every time I begin to loose my balance while I’m walking it helps correct me so that I can maintain my balance while still moving forward even when I’m tired and the muscles in my legs and hips begin to become sore and shake while I’m moving, I’m still moving forward, With the cane that my younger brother made me I can keep moving forward, 

My younger brother made it a long time ago and he used it as a walking stick on some adventures he went on his own and I have used it as a cane when I was injured before, 

With it I can keep moving forward, 

None of my friends or people who I used to consider my friends have contacted me and for some of them I understand and know why, 

It’s ok and makes sense for some of them to not directly contact me or try to see me in person with my respect for them maintained, 

other friends or people I used to consider my friends I understand might only want to see me in person or contact me directly so that they may do so as my enemy and with ulterior motives and for them not doing so whether able to or not I am grateful, 

for some other friends and people I used to consider my friends it might make sense for them to directly contact me and see me in person again and while it might seem silly or odd to do so with the mindset of it being for the last time and so that I can say goodbye when there is no clear reason or understanding of why it would be for the last time, 

 it still would be or probably would be the last time for some of them to directly contact me or see me in-person again and I wouldn’t explain why and I would expect not to be asked to explain why, 

for them just know that the only explanation I can give is that I’m going to be busy for a long time soon and going some places where they cannot follow, 

in a few weeks I should have more independence of movement and the ability to visit and just hang out for a few weeks without having difficulties with scheduling or other conflicts even if during those few weeks where I can just hang out without difficulties we only hang out for a day or few days we would be able to, 

also I shouldn’t have to write this but I do none of the students from any of the buildings where I can accept jobs to teach as a substitute should ever contact me directly or indirectly and the same thing applies to anyone and anybody who is a student in any nonpost-secondary educational institution/non college or university student with this part being mostly in regards to people interested in tutoring sessions of any kind being scheduled with me, 

a parent or guardian would need to schedule tutoring sessions and be present during the tutoring session in order for it to take place, 

and the same thing would have to apply for anyone or anybody who is a minor who wants to schedule a lawn-care job with a parent or guardian needing to be present and be the one to actually schedule and pay for the job and the parent or guardian would need to be the client for the job, other than all that the only things that a person who is my friend or person who was considered my friend who wants to see me again and in-person should know is that while hanging out I don’t like people making fun of each other or anybody or anyone and I don’t like people playing pranks or anything like that, 

I also have been having difficulties enjoying comedy of any kind because of some of the things I have been working out with myself, 

I can get really sad and upset at times seemingly without reason and would apologize if I was while hanging out, 

while it would be ok to talk about some of the things I’ve written and posted it is not something I enjoy talking about all the time and I’m not consistent with the way that I talk about the things Ive written or posted and inconsistent with the way I understand it on my own so that kind of inconsistency should be expected during conversations like that, 

I also don’t enjoy discussing topics of politics because of the conflict that comes from them or topics of drama that occurs between people especially people in groups, 

I don’t like to talk about other people without them being there, 

I know the whole not wanting to be touched by other people thing that I have is kinda weird and something that I really don’t like explaining in that way and is something that a lot of people might make fun of me for but it’s still a whole thing for me and I think the best way for me to explain that to someone if need be such as if they offer to shake my hand is to just say that touching people is a whole thing for me so instead of shaking hands I do this, 

and that to communicate respect that they should do the same thing after me, 

it’s kinda the same thing as shaking hands  anyway and something that I hope people don’t take offense to as ‘me refusing to shake hands with them and ‘forcing’ them to do something the way that I want’ but I can understand that as a way that people might initially interpret a situation such as that, 

lastly for anyone or anybody that is my friend or someone who I used to consider my friend to understand about me is that sometimes my memory and ability to ‘keep up with’ conversations is excellent and that sometimes it is not and I might forget something you say almost immediately after you say it and might seem like I’m ’zoned out’ or something like that,

 I really don’t like having to ‘keep my guard up’ around people that I’m hanging out with especially if I’m supposed to be enjoying hanging out with them and that’s something else I noticed people might make fun of me for, 

do not repeat the things I say in conversation to other people after I say them to you without asking my permission to do so first,

also it is ok for people to contact me initially using my business number who are like that in order to get my personal number just remember that texting is usually better and if attempting to call me that I usually don’t answer calls and that you should leave a voice message so that I can contact you back, 

Also if anyone talks about or says anything about my younger brother to me I’ll just respond by saying ‘I live’ and not discuss that topic any further,

I’ve written and posted some things like this before but I feel it is worth it, 

-Lucid 

-Luke D. Edwards