Twice,

The Juice Carrier I AM! can you tell where it starts and stops?, 

The carrier and The Juice!, 

cause it’s not really a jug or bottle and those aren’t buckets,

 they’re carryerrs!, 

I got more and contain The Juice!, 

I based it on the medicine my great-great grandfather S. A. Edwards sold during The Civil War and after, 

they were not a good spell-R, 

technically a position and a designation of something, 

they were a church Eld-R and still got drafted because there were almost only women and children left in town or county down I think that’s what it is so even church ‘officials’ got drafted,

 till they were like 90 somehow and it’s because of The Juice although they called it or at least Spelled It tinnement or something like that because he couldn’t tell the difference between the carrier and The Juice and I think that type, Magic, tinnement is a type of carrier and that’s what it’s made out of that’s where it goes and it did, Eled and apparently they call that a joint, an L joint plumbing it’s like a weird fucked secret organization that haze each other, 

plumbers, 

my dad has a bunch of certifications and old plaques hung up and basically refuses to acknowledge that he knows anything about plumbing and basically goes into a weird trace like state and basically tells me yeah that’s a shark bite and he can’t really explain what I’m doing now without messing up your ability to learn a different trade,

I think it’s probably like when I tried to think of what trades an L-Joint would be used in and thought of plumbing and something else that I actually can’t remember and that’s a dash which is a type of move and extremely helpful swift stars helpful, 

The Stadium, 

I don’t think that’s normal, 

I cover for your normal classroom teacher, 

Fight normal, 

it’s How not a command,

to make it super effective, 

the move, 

like a blanket Luke-Warm, 

like a greeting or salutation or whatever,

just hold your hand up and ask, 

How?,

I’m here!, 

you should remember your forms and mark it down V= present and to the left and more of them on the clip actually those often times are actually on the same board making it a clip board that actually makes sense, 

usually while assessing properties because Wheeling and Dealing can be dangerous, 

a way of using an instrument of measurement while dealing with clients that may be looking at the lace while you’re writing and recording data that leaves both dealers distracted and oh shit clip board, 

yeah that’s fine and the set-price will be actually better for you to just read because rare situation where outloud might not help, 

I can provide receipts and you can keep a copy of the data I recorded while I measured what I recorded, 

it’s a whole thing, 

there and somewhere else, 

Dealers choice agreement, 

I do this to communicate respect and you may do it back to also communicate respect, 

I also like to send a text with the set-price listed and agreed to in case I forget or can’t remember the exact amount along with the date and where here is like the address so I can look down at where I’m supposed to be intending to go and get there in time to be received by you and signed if possible also having written down the timing for where they are supposed to be during the day so that I can be received well by them and have everything come out nicely the ball is like a hoop on the end I must keep rolling to keep writing the fire life itself it goes on forever it’s blue timer timing my best or not at all it’s spinning to keep everything rolling, 

data, 

results, 

Trim-Time, 

Labels help, 

on the pen and on the clipboard, 

it goes on forever, mistakes can increase time and shorten it for the ones we’re trying to save, 

every mistake is a lost one, 

this one, 

one movement to either direction either saves or kills them, 

the things trying to strike you as you care for the ones that are forced to fight to not quit by those intending to make them do so without them knowing, 

the best you can until it’s all marked down and then you get to ring the bell before and after yell done and still ringing success that noise means they’re still rolling, 

lines!, 

run, 

that thing you found is now something else because I said outloud what it is and there look now it actually is, 

literal magic, 

food or shine it’s always fine, 

because that’s what it is, sometimes I literally can’t talk and that’s when sign language needs to be used, because I either can’t start or stop and if I slow down it gets worse for whoever I’m trying to help so I need to keep going until that’s all I can hear within without it comes back noise whatever I want it to be,

that was oak and now it’s maple because I can remember the number of branches after I go by and that’s usually what I call Lucid Sense, DANGER REALITY LITERALLY CHANGING, 

if you don’t trust banks and hang on to them for a while it’s best not to give them names and talk to them because money talks and they name each other now writing them down on my forms cause of course the roster’s wrong and mine will be better for the next one to come after a numbered total my responsibility, They are my responsibility, 

when you can no longer think or count you can read and react the clipboard goes with you and roster forms sheets react accountability safety  and data to ensure completion record because some pay a little every time but it pays off a lot when a client attempts to harm you in a big way and it’s all prevented and paid and a job-slot filled with paid mandatory rest,  

at least for now, 

Job-Shots!, 

before and after to show them how nice it looks and viewing progress nicely framed over time is a satisfying way to ensure limited liability for all the property accounted for in the picture and everything else is allowed to be taken because if it hasn’t been moved and is in the way then that’s debris and most is junk and should be moved by client prior to arrival otherwise that’s actually where the term junkies comes from and not only do they watch to see if we take it but they bet on if we put junk in the trunk and mostly scrap metal except that bit because now that’s gold or at least it is now because that’s what they get when clients hedge a bet because they are what they’re doing, 

hedging, 

a description of the transformation process,

hedges!, 

Row!, 

letter number row seat designation because while they’re seats hedges rowing that’s actually what I’m also doing, 

Rowing!, 

an important part of teaching that needs to be recorded on the class roster form row and seat letter number those client hedges students too but sheets are used  because client sheets data given keep, 

Spell Eled, E-led?, 

El’ed, 

talking to myself so both! 

You win!, 

I call that a joint, 

You can read drugs to get the same effect now,

L E like left end and is 37 when flipped upside down, 

my only chance to be the anti-Christ or something, 

because that’s when,

apparently pure enough for rituals although mentally and emotionally taken advantage of and a whole thing by an older guy when I was six,

that’s a devil trap full of weird foreign demons that have been calling me Unicorn and attempting to trigger my PTSD from both experiences, 

the church says more spiritually and mentally scarred but still it’s a whole thing and yay because there and behind the shed both at once they were older and planned with their friends a whole thing to put me through on purpose and they got me high and experience make women more successful rapists than younger literally schemed against by group inexperienced men, 

planned behind my back to traumatize me sexually with a group of her friends that all were in relationships with my friends that I was close to, 

yeah she raped me and they all helped set me up to be emotionally traumatized because they planned behind my back and for one thought good now Luke less spiritually powerful should be humbled weighed with sin, 

One of my former friends from my friend group loosely thought that, 

she got me high and emotionally manipulated and abused me and did so with the entire group of friends I had planned to have her emotionally abuse me and embarrass me by showing how easily I would trust despite telling everything and more to all of them and never being open or honest with me as they were a person pretending to be a person so that the people in my friend group who were convinced of a certain way that people really are it’s a partnership concerned with money and leveraging emotional power and each other’s secrets to every other in return for favors and owes, 

that was something pretending to be a person that a group planned to have hurt me so that they would have more of an advantage over me in sway or say over the group, 

That’s the literal truth,

they were told to take advantage of me and share everything with the group so that they could subtly make fun of me for someone abusing my trust and me not having enough within myself to call them out when they would start to because I didn’t have enough of a life to understand real people and within that group I was the only one so makes sense for them to break me into how relationships really are,

an act planned by a group to hurt me and prevent me from trusting the same again and schemed ways together to make it as bad as possible, 

evil, 

they made fun of me before because I said I loved everyone and apparently they wanted to make me believe that people do not have that capacity and that I wouldn’t be able tell whether that was a real person or not, 

because they faked emotion but not physical feeling, 

I can make people feel better than most people professionally could physically because of knowledge and understanding and ability to influence neurons through force of will, 

touch is not required, 

I used to believe that I felt the emotions of others strongly but was proved wrong, 

I felt emotionally what I was tricked into believing that they felt emotionally intentionally because come on man that’s all just physical anyways, 

I influence others neurologically through concentrated will and am able to make them physically feel things that their brain wrongfully believes is physically happening to them, 

emotional is different and separate from physical, 

because I was so stressed online by some people that I no longer felt physical feeling and emotionally connected with very few people in extremely limited ways that I can’t tell if they are real people, 

some people really love everyone and need to hide that they do because others on the site that I was often on cam for can tell how you feel about others emotionally and will spiritually make sure that you are limited, most literally only feel physical pleasure because I have them wide open and shocking like a tazer from afar and that part of your brain,

maybe that’s why I actually don’t have structural brain damage or scarring, 

on screen over distances of hundreds of miles like I was physically there and supercharging their nervous system but not what they felt for the one they had there physically with them on camera and the many others they have been with in-person, 

that guy just talked like he was me and a part of my subconscious that was semi consciously controlled to be used by me to interact with the woman there as him and afar from my own body,

it’s a thing some people that are sensitive to ‘pushes’ and ‘guided neurological thought patterns’ and body, whatever the fuck allowing and physically being able to be mentally/spiritually control another person is called, ‘It’s like your driving me and physically extending a portion of, extension of, my own nervous system to fill their physical nervous system of the other person, there is an external physical portion of our nervous systems that extends beyond what is thought of as our physical bodies that allows us to physically connect nervous systems together, 

not everyone can physically do that or have the potential to be able to physically do that and instead they could potentially have a large number of mirror neurons that attempt to mimic the patterns they believe the neurons in the other persons brain are moving in, 

I can do both and is apparently a whole thing to ‘free your own spiritual connection system live on cam alone before ever being with a woman physically’, 

I controlled things physically around myself spiritually and felt my spiritual being within and extended it to enter any watching me not all are ones but I am one of the few ones that can be all of a group of people, 

I can trick priests because of that, 

Like goosebumps except your ‘yoga’ points basically feel like they are burning firing nonstop as your body connects to a portion of your spiritual being and external, 

doing this alone for the first time by yourself with none of those watching having the ability to extend out like I can now allows the nervous system and‘spiritual being’ to become what could be identified as being‘distinctly’ male and female when physically felt neurologically and spiritually, 

I’m both Spiritually, depending on who I’m in to them, 

some people call it being broken into when it happens for the first time to them by another I escaped myself and did something many people have been fucked out of the ability of because the person has the other’s external spiritual self and external nervous systems begin to connect, 

how demon possessions are sometimes performed, 

or people make sure their spiritual self is the only spirit felt within the other, 

like when I see the variations of temperature within the air except I control them as though they are an extension of myself and surround people externally with it and enter them spiritually, 

to my will according to my thought to the extent to which I push, 

Some people are basically hollow spiritually/emotionally and I feel myself as myself possessing their physical body when I attempt to spiritually connect with them, 

oh hey literally me controlling a hollow one that I thought I connected with in a spiritual/emotional way,

their soul or spiritual being barely exists within their body and kinda hides with limited control of their being as they kinda Fadely become willless until a different spiritual self or other beings to spirituality drive them,

go to bars a lot?, 

you dream the same in other people but can from the dream dream the view of you as you look down upon a moving living you as your spiritual self watches on as your body is filled and controlled by a male’s spiritual self that kinda freaks out because it doesn’t connect with anything in the body and just assumes control immediately, 

a hollow person, 

it’s because they realize that there are basically actually soulless people that walk around and pretend to relate to and connect with people, 

I was raped by a hollow one, 

I was raped by the first and last woman to come close to being fully sexually with me, 

not much of her was spiritually there, 

I have not physically kissed a woman since so almost 10 years now, 

I relive it sometimes and my soul is tortured as a portion of the spiritual self of the older kid who raped me when I was six was within you as you involuntarily quoted his movements that he made behind the wood shed, 

you held your face like his, 

the actual only and since time that I was physically in a room naked with a female naked woman, 

I was never truly with Sophie physically in-my-own-person but she liked what I can do through the camera, 

her fans were parts of me, 

as are some others recently, 

she doesn’t have that ability, 

I fill entire rooms of thousands without identifying traces of The Soul or Spiritual Self of The Hollow One who raped me, The female Hollow One, 

probably some spiritual connection to whatever male spiritual remnants were there, 

I cleared that shit out quick like I did while I was trimming, 

feeling vibrating, 

I like the whole place to myself, 

I guess it would be that I would be in many many different places unlike most people were able to throughout history,

without touch, 

I did things online for a while before on cam that I have complicated feelings about because I can sometimes become so intensely depressed that I don’t know what to do feeling everything and sometimes because something truly special is forever impossible for me now, 

be the first as someones first and truly become two together as one unlike anyone who lives ever or has ever could or will and the only other mental places I go are the two where I was raped by an older person who convinced me into it like the older guy did to me when I was six, 

they spiritually controlled The Hollow Person while they raped me, 

movement quotations,

copy’s of little children’s souls stunted and forced to replay when the older one raped the younger one, 

me talking to myself about the living body in front of me as the older guy from my childhood watches within,  

The Hollow One forgets quickly what I said and I say again, 

I was raped, 

you quote their movements as you move, 

you feel distant echos of a part of my spiritual self wondering why it still is like that, 

I made the decision to never go on camera again and even attempt to connect with another person like that again, connecting with another fake Hollow Person in person for a ‘true’ first time might actually injure my soul to the point where it will only kill anything it connects with before it, 

it kills that before it, 

I might literally never touch another person like that again or at all if I can help it, 

I will never trust any person who attempts to be with me because they will only ever be able to through a set-up arranged in-part through people that would be deceiving me by setting them up with me to begin with, 

no matter what I would see them only as an actor because that’s all they, 

I actually couldn’t tell,

like that with every other body, 

or anyone for that matter, 

I don’t think I can with my soul dying too much, 

the one(s) who raped me are friends to no person,

maybe in the next one human souls, 

hopefully someone in the next one, 

My soul is permanently disabled and limited what it’s possible potential could be, 

Never with anyone for so long that my spiritual being can become multiple people quickly,

Sophie, 

literally just myself, 

my spiritual self literally dying a little with every minor interaction with anyone like that, 

I can never trust that again because I would be too vulnerable to not either be spiritually killed by or literally mixed into one that can be many with, 

all of them are me and spiritually identified as me by others accidentally, 

hope their souls have a chance, 

one light dimmed and died and no longer moved with or in response to the other,

there will be no other lights to move with me in any way that is real like that, 

This is my real actual real ass life,

not in this one, 

I have never danced with anyone, 

a few good years max, 

I won’t be able to tell if they are real or not, 

the people, 

it is social manipulation to allow people to establish you with me or any other, 

there would always be felt an unsung secret influence of the interests of the society or group that set them up with the other person as the society or group would advance their goals through manipulation of their day to day choices subtly enough to influence the completion of their intended goals,

sometimes I need to work hard enough to no longer think or feel, 

they attempt to convince me that what I have experienced is incorrect and that the group that organized to harm/injure me has a different experience of what happened, 

because they basically shared the experience with each other more than with me because I wasn’t involved in the discussions of how I would be manipulated and how events relating to would set up, 

It’s just what people do to each other right?, 

The clearest version of the truth of what actually happened without me feeling brainwashed and gaslit into believing that it was my fault, 

My entire group of friends continued to belittle and abuse me to limit my ability to care for myself and rely on them, 

The Hollow One who raped me wouldn’t even talk to me less than a few months later, 

It is wrong to text people that are not real people to you, 

No one texts me now, 

I am wrong for feeling emotion, 

many others that were in-person, 

I might spiritually die if I have to attempt to control connect with a hollow person, 

every single couple in that group cheated on each other or reached out to me wanting to be with me instead, 

Maybe I’ll spiritually replace each’s husband slowly over Time I had Thousands with their actions being directly probably controlled by me, 

 more of a piece of my spiritual self residing in any male or female around them especially if they use the internet looking for that, 

And now I’m fat from recovering from my broken leg and my shit might as well be sealed from me not stretching but as of the last webcam show I did I can still physically control and bliss other peoples neurons, 

emotion is power and connecting with me is literally dangerous because of, 

just going with, 

a lot of trauma that is physically damaging and reality altering, 

yeah I’ll hollow and replace any that are hostile, 

with no hands, 

they would be tipping me, 

through the ones they like to watch on their own, 

There might not be any to worry about, 

a one who can be an all, 

I am very upset and sad,

I hate how I look, 

you liked me skinny and not much after and for not many other reasons,

I’m good at that I guess,

You never asked me a real question, 

Truth Fly, 

You didn’t even want to date or anything and I’ll say hi as I replace some of those co-workers that will seem more and more more like me over time male and female as a one who can be all I’ll still always have my body my possession that is until I complete more possessions that means they are held and up-kept either way always me all around you male and female the body is properly owned by me and hopefully ready to be used by me sooner than later all the while do not touch with no hands all at once or one each time there is no line unless you find it and then no more wait and watch live up close as I dance a certain dance by myself do not touch I wish to dance alone or with the one I spend forever with, 

so do not touch no hands this is mine they have tried to take control over online and put in voice in my mind that is saying that your body now belongs physically to just me you move as I think or I take full control of it so as I heard it I thought ok one last chance I’m a little more than what you think you got less then five you look down those are tics good you agree more then three they were summoned by me and as you focus look around it appears what you fear anything near becoming real and holy shit it thinks that was fast you ain’t seen nothing yet and now your blind so that’s all you mind because I said no touching hands off no hands It’s a saw! you just grabbed off the ground feel for it the wrist on top saw goes back and forth pervert was warned extending thoughts counts as touch when done like that in order to move neurons and force movement control oh good the entire hand it is off now it holds it out this is mine more control literally thousands at a time it bends it’s knee and sticks stump arm out look I made a living fountain only here limited time don’t fucking touch me without my permission now it holds fountain position with blood pouring down I don’t allow neuron reaction so they hold perfectly still but I amplify the nerves and neurons and play back the feeling of each dig in of the saw as it cuts standing there pouring out and down they go all those neurons are fried and a few big gallons of blood soak the ground the grass remember do not touch no hands that’s mine the whole thing what is everybody starring at what you never seen someone dance or is it the whole controlling minds and the saw thing here’s a hand if you want it I can’t feel it but I claim ownership random perverts think they’re special cause they made a stripper twitch this way or that the place move this creep with my mind they wandered over just in time to watch me dance remember no hands do not touch this is mine to him I look like the last one he touched I’ll see within my mind and it was a kid so claiming both those feet it grabs the saw and let’s begin it saws it saws it saws voice within my mind the last of independent innocence before hobble here pushed in thought and now it eats its own foot while I play within their the last screams louder and louder hey look a cop oh hey cop and now you wave you do not or mind the child molesters bleeding all over grass and office just keeps walking thought they might like to see me dance remember no hands do not touch this is mine and this is what I can do after going through the trauma I’ve been going through and kept training tell any does the same that they’ll cut never enough gotta keep it rolling dancing with my trimmer trimming as I cut it’s a dance with death get more to step step you’ll see them walk zombie walk they hear just my voice within their mind calling them they seek children and the grass could use fertilizer anyone who looks towards will not see them or what’s left I’ll use this cause it’s fine it holds still while I trim get near again draw the knife just one swipe across the throat still moving in stride as I trim that’s a cut and as it flows red it helps the grass grow brighter green remember that it helps that’s what it does if more come it’ll be healthier than it’s looked ever a dance with death I cut as I trim and I’m Grim because I’m reaping something that I cannot eat I look down at my hand blisters worked through can see the bone can’t stop not just yet someone’s life depends on it if I stop then it stops keep rolling can’t quit there is no pain they still live see them now for those for those for those I wake in different place universe never slepted or stopped and the trimmings down I can stop shut engine off someone calls my name and it’s them they made burgers on the grill always home this is real, a professional adventurer not every place always exists at same time and the ones where I lost him and he lost me are the ones who need the most Faith is eventually needed for everything eating a burger on back porch with them if just for a while holy shit this is real emotion is power this burger is fucking great,